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#315: cannibal

Sunday, March 11, 2012 at 1:01 PM

seriously crazy good times from the last sports day ever just last friday. somehow everything obviously seems more beautiful and amazing when it's your last, even if it's been something you've deemed mundane for a really long time. i really truly love SJC and the spirit it brings, i actually wish it'd not be my last year, misconceptions in the past just make me feel kinda stupid now, but i truly appreciate everything that's happened these past four years. i'm just glad to be an IJ girl :') oh and how can i ever mention how thankful i am that i brought my camera????? :''''''') hehehe. i just love J and Ker and D and Steph, and Sal and Xiaowee, VT, Bel, Vanessa, Sherylyn, Niko, Cheryl and Sheikh and everybady :>

of course friday night after sports day was amazing too, had the best friday in months with xiaowee and her aunt!!!! book shopping (OH YEAH), jalan-jalan (which i need more of + clothes shopping hahaha) + ramen (DA BOMB) and cold stone with her aunt!!! i just feel so at home with them, and i can totally be myself with xiaowee hehe. she reminds me of TCF. speaking of which, i really really do truly miss them so much. this week's not gonna be easy though it's a week's break. 74th anniversary rehearsals almost everyday, then there's CT2 revision. i'm such an imbecile, i forgot to bring my math notes home. gg.com ya?

dinner later in the evenin' which i hope is good :-) feeling in the mood for tennis/swimming/running though i can't run for nuts. have a good week everybody!!!! hehe

#314: dwellings

Thursday, March 8, 2012 at 5:56 PM

there are a few things that have been going on in my head recently: i realised

1) just because somebody's always there doesn't mean you can push them around. like duh enough yes?
2) the things people hardly seem to say are obviously normally the words that make the most sense, and speak the most.
3) my week has been so mixed here and there. i don't know if it's good or bad so this is a realisation HAHA
4) SO CLOSE YET SO FAR TO A WEEK'S HOLIDAY. A WEEK D: I HAVE NO IDEA WHETHER TO BE GLAD OR NOT
5) i'm running out of photos, but it's sports day tomorrow!!! i have no idea if i should bring my camera since j and i spend it doing nothing HAHAHAH
6) i have been narrating stuff in my head/day all week long. ALL. WEEK. LONG.
7) i'm in desperate need of books. falling back into the reading and nothing else phase for a while.
8) i need to keep my faith from crumbling now more than ever. NOW MORE THAN EVER.
9) PAGE ONE CLOSED DOWN A MONTH AGO. AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW. NOW IT'S GONE FOREVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR /slits wrists/

i guess that's about it bye hur hur

#313: patience

Saturday, February 25, 2012 at 5:15 PM

i meant to post last week, but i kept procrastinating and so it slipped my mind. so since i have the time now, why not eh?
my week's been the same so i won't really care much about the details. pretty much the most exciting thing to happen this week was CD and PTM. i really do love the 4G Farm crazy much, i'd die without them and it's insane to think we'll be graduating soon enough :'-( but regrets aside, if i were to be happy about anything these past two years, i'd be happiest about being in this AMAAAAYZING 4G Farm with Mama Ong and Papa Phua :') seriously adore them beyond words!!!!
i guess i also ought to mention how much i miss having a normal life and not feeling like i have to desperately work so hard all the time. it's a vicious cycle of forcing myself to work hard every day, then feeling like i didn't really do much or anything at all, and that's really scary. i miss going out spontaneously, having the freedom to make choices on the spot or time to do whatever we wanted to, and of course the time i used to spend with isabel, sherylyn, vanessa, nicole, vseah, den, j, xiaojo, cheryl and shingz :'-( we've all been busy lately but hopefully that doesn't stop us from being kids soon?

for everything else, truly, i'll end off with what i always say: i'm sincerely thankful to God. it's truly amazing that all this time away from NEC and service, i still keep my faith in Him, and that i truly must comment that it's really beautiful and wonderful.
i hope the weekends get better!!!! weekdays are lovely with 4G :-) they seriously keep me going on weekdays and pushing day after day, week after week and month after month. the coming week's gonna be fun, but serious work right after so gonna do my best and leave the rest to God!!!

Know therefore that the Lord your God is God; He is the faithful God - Deuteronomy 7:9

(this is actually 2 Mar 2012 but it was a draft as you can see, first started in feb hahahaha)