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#166: my wasted heart will love you

Tuesday, December 28, 2010 at 6:15 PM

what you don't understand is that i'd catch a grenade for ya ♥.

i know i've been spamming this place a lot, but then i had to do this for 2010 :>
i'm a hopeless dreamer so i can never rank my favourite moments, so everything in this post is considered my top 10 moments of 2010, in no particular order of favouritism (though they are numbered to make it easier) :) (okay i think i ranked them sub-conciously while numbering them lmao)

#10: moments with 1 Faith 2009/2 Faith 2010 (+ the clique and maybe with the 3 alien visitors):

the fact that so many scoldings, bookings, punishments, tears and all that disappointment and hard work to become a worthy class from a lost cause probably isn't enough. because two years together surely isnt enough for me. i remember all the tears we shed together, all the teachers we angered, all the arguments, wars, cliques, bad and good times, and when we had three visitors turning the class totally upside down even though they were trying (and failing) to be extremely invisible. oh 2 faith, you totally desperate class. i am still pretty half-hearted about everything, but i know i'll always love and remember 2 Faith 10, because there's only and will always only be one. :)

#9: all the (sometimes random) outings and shopping trips:

there was far too many in 2010! okay maybe not that many, but i remember each and every one being crazy enough, but too many to mention :> i loved everyone, even if most of them were awkward messes. it's even more fun with the amazing people like vanessa seah xin yan (who deserves mention in this post, seriously! she's more amazing than i give her actual credit for! i love you buddy!) :>

#8: crazy crashes at each others' place:

there's really no specific group of people for this moment since there were a whole lot, but one of my favourites was definitely that with the two craziest, best people around (see above!) :> nothing like a good way to spend a day after school than at someone's house eating mac delivery and fooling around with a camera at a playground!

#7: failed (but sometimes successful) birthday celebrations/birthday parties:

where do i begin with this! 2010 was full of this! this would be, in fact, in total comparison with shopping trips (ie #9!), except the only difference is that there was cake + definitely much more hilarious, warm and fun. the bonus is i remember most of them :) let's see, there was cheryl and nicole's, sally's, siew mun's, vanessa yeo's, mine and vanessa tan's, rebecca and sonia's, chermaine's and maybe more :> don't feel offended if i didn't mention yours or anything hehe :>

#6: days out with nat:

yes, she has her own top 10 moment because i hang out with her too much not to mention :) she's the source of female strength, a slut-boho-indie loving fashion junkie. she's mostly confused beneath her strong, rude demeanor though. and i thank her for her time given to me!

#5: overseas trips (especially OC III!):

see them there? yes, that's my OC III clique, and i thank them, especially my two favourite losers sitting on my right (at the extreme left)! no words can express how much i love all of the moments we spent in Taiwan for OC III! i swear, the training was hard, but everything was so worth it. until today, i miss the whole trip and moment and experience dearly. i'm glad i went for OC III. i'm glad God gave me this. :>

#4: the SHINee clique (and the moments):

they are the people who understand fandom with me, and are the important people in my life. i don't know how to start talking about them, seriously! 2010 was so amazing because i did so many crazy things, it was even more amazing because i met them! and yes, i did do a lot of crazy things with them! to say i love them would be an understatement, because we're so bonded and dependent on each other that it feels like the age-gap between all of us is non-existent! we rely on and take care of each other during and throughout all the SHINee events :) that was the first time i felt fandom do something extremely amazing in my life. i'm so thankful, i can never express how glad i am to have met (and reconnected again with some of) them!

#3: k-pop night concert (or any k-pop events):

okay apart from my hair that is an irrelevant disaster here, let me just say that SHINee does not count in this category. they're too important so they get their own category LOL (#biased, remember?) anyway, k-pop night concert is #3 because it's epic (and also because i couldn't think of other k-pop events to mention here, so i'm mentioning k-pop night alone but that's not the point LOL). okay this is starting to get a little biased. so maybe i am ranking them. anyway, e-p-i-c. 7 groups, one venue, one night, one stage. okay so i admit i was only there for SHINee but how can you turn down SNSD or FT Island (jsyk, big bang isn't that relevant to me)?! i had tons of fun albeit i had no memory afterwards (i swear, i seriously regret not bringing an 8GB memory card instead LOL) and i didn't get to take group shots or anything. nonetheless, i'll miss the time i had here.

#2: SHINee events (like the showcase which is a fair example!):

call me totally paranoid but the reason i posted a group picture instead of a SHINee picture is because i don't want my photos going anywhere :> i'm not part of the fan forums/cafe people or any kind of people who like flaunting their fan-taken photos. i will one day, maybe, but for now, SHINee moments are #2 because apparently yes, i AM biased (DEAL WITH IT ^^) and also because it was so-fucking-fun. words cannot express how fun and how much i enjoyed/missed this moment. from the queueing overnight and lack of sleep because of queueing to going to tuition exhausted to leaving tuition half an hour early for the Ohmy Entertainment Awards to staying over at Alvina's and waking up and cabbing to IMM late because we were too exhausted (and lazy) to wake up on time + answer phone calls. and then from there it was buying macs for emergency breakfast (because we were late LOL) just to preserve our (miraculously gotten) acceptable standing positions. well in the end we moved to a barricade anyway and met two key stans who lent us their spots :> and we stood in the rain under a piece of plastic and ended up soaked but totally ecstatic anyway because SHINee had noticed us :> it was more than worth it if you ask me, and i'd totally do it again with the SHINee clique ANY DAY, that's #2 for you :>

#1: TCF moments:

sigh, TCF, oh TCF, there is no limit to how to describe them. we're these totally weird kids who are always away from plain sight leading boring, average lives, but when you put all of us together, it's like our worries cast away and we're totally different people. it almost feels exactly like we're bounded and close because of destiny. it's not like we're just primary school mates/classmates. i think it'd have to be closer than just the term 'classmate'. they're so important to me, it'd be hard to imagine my life without them. i think if we were all just classmates, our friendship would've ended 2 years ago. nothing lasts forever. i'm sure some will go and some will stay, but the 2010 moments (maybe not just the 2010 moments!) as all of us together are worth keeping. they've made 2010 amazing for me with the chalet, individual outings and parties, and they'll continue so, i know. which is why they're TCF; my TCF, and the moments are my #1 of 2010 ♥.

this post took awhile. it felt like forever, seriously. it was extremely hard to upload and compile + complete this post. not to mention think about which moments meant the most (too many, really!) :)
THANK YOU, EVERYONE, FOR BEING PART OF MY 2010. This is also for 2011 ♥

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