"the way your cheek burns when you realise you're crying over something stupid isn't half as horrible as the way your insides burn when you find out something you don't want to know.
it's like seeing something you love get killed in front of you. so close, so far, but nothing you can do, right? there's so many things you can regret in life, but only time will tell how close you'll get, how far you'll be and how long till you decide to let go. if it's worth, it's worth, if it's not, not even close.
i'm afraid of my own feelings. i hate how i can be such a pessimist sometimes. i hate how i have amazing friends i'll end up dragging down when i decide to screw up my own life. i hate how i don't deserve more than half, or all the amazing people in my life."