Hi, my name is Beatrix and I was born on the 3rd of December. I graduated from OLGC, part of the alumni of '08, and SJC, 09-12. I'm Team NYJC now and I ♥ ISLE 2013 + my '1314 Truggers.
♥: TCF, the SJChoir family, the 2F + 4G clique cliques. I am socially awkward, I loathe a lot of things and I'm rather sarcastic (but I'm contented with this, thanks). I am very fussy and nitty-gritty, I like coffee and tea and I adore ballads and acoustic music. I also complain a lot and like to repeat myself. I guess sometimes when I don't smile it might look like I'm rude, but I actually just have a case of chronic-bitchface syndrome hahaha. More me?


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#181: bloomers
Friday, January 21, 2011 at 10:44 PM

i'm sorry. forgive me.

i asked God today for strength and wisdom. because i have never known the right words to say. i was given a mouth that never knew exactly the right words to say to make anyone feel better. i never know how to tell someone i need them in my life before i regret anything.
i asked God today for the clarity of heart because i hurt you. i don't know what will happen if i never hear from you again. i have lost direction.
i asked God today to watch over the people i needed most in my life. because i'm sorry i couldn't be a better sister for my brother when he injured his hand and now needs an operation, or a better daughter that couldn't be most optimistic for my mother. or a better family member that just knew exactly how to tell my family i love them very much, that i wish them the best for everything. that i actually want them to know how i feel.
i asked God today to teach me to know exactly what to say. because i don't want to live a life of regret wishing i told the right people the right things and met the right people. i don't want to hurt everyone with what i say and never said.

i only hope i'll find my direction soon. i know He heard me, right?