i am so tired but concert yesterday was great + fun + extremely adorable! i thought sleeping these shitty feelings away would do me the slightest bit of good but nothing seems to have changed. what i'm afraid of now is that these feelings make their way back again and again. i need closure, i need these things to end and jealousy needs to just leave. i need to accept that and i have, but after these echoing thoughts go away, i'm sure i'll be fine. please let them go away. i just want to remain stagnant with this. no more emotional attachment or vulnerability.

that aside, i am officially terrified by my own dreams and 2 hours of sectionals later at 2, please please please be productive (i bet everyone's really too tired). friday's practice though, i'm not looking forward to, fingers crossed it goes well because my voice is in sub-standard shape and my mind is a blur. alright, good day to yall anyway, whoever reads this!