Hi, my name is Beatrix and I was born on the 3rd of December. I graduated from OLGC, part of the alumni of '08, and SJC, 09-12. I'm Team NYJC now and I ♥ ISLE 2013 + my '1314 Truggers.
♥: TCF, the SJChoir family, the 2F + 4G clique cliques. I am socially awkward, I loathe a lot of things and I'm rather sarcastic (but I'm contented with this, thanks).
I am very fussy and nitty-gritty, I like coffee and tea and I adore ballads and acoustic music. I also complain a lot and like to repeat myself.
I guess sometimes when I don't smile it might look like I'm rude, but I actually just have a case of chronic-bitchface syndrome hahaha. More me?
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#258: reverb
Sunday, September 11, 2011 at 8:34 PM
i'm always kind of scared even though i've settled with being friends, the jealousy and feeling will come back. i've never talked about the feeling ever since i decided i'm okay with it and we'll just remain like this forever, but now i'm not so sure. i'm sure i want to not feel jealous or not feel these recurring emotions and have echoing thoughts of the same damn thing 24/7, but i'm not all that sure that i can keep up with that. i want to have these conversations that matter but as they die down and as i sat there, i just came to the realisation that it's all or nothing: so either i decide to suffer all the way, or keep nothing at all. maybe i should just settle for last place because from the looks of it, the conversation of friday is not likely to repeat itself. i'll miss it.
this broken emotion should stop coming around ever so often.