okay i have so much to say about life even though i just haven't been on the computer/on this page for like 5 days (i don't really want to count haha) and it seems like 25987321 years. haha
firstly, ct4 proved to be a pain because it was just ct4 (which is supposedly a class test. not even a cohort test. a class test - but then again everyone with similar subject combinations take the same papers which is uniformed and vetted so it's still a level test looool) and i felt like i was going through female pattern balding or something with all the stress. i have no idea how i studied so hard for end year papers last year when i had like so many more subjects back then (every subject was compulsory since we have to see what subject we like best so i had about 11 theory papers to sit for in lower sec on last count) so i'm kinda worried thinking about if i can live up to back then. if i could do it then, why not now? :-(

next thing is that i feel so frustrated and distracted. i started revising, yes, but there's this barring emotional border and it's kind of making things harder. academically, i'm starting to take this positive attitude which makes things easier, so i hope i don't crash and burn (metaphorically speaking) when i take o's next year. oh look at me, thinking of o's when i'm not even sure i can successfully conquer end years'. that aside, i'm thankful for everything God has given. His grace and presence has proved to be successful and sufficient.
all for that, that's for now, back to chem (long long long list of things to do for this weekend and short short short time frame sigh), toodles :-)