haven't used the computer in a week and i feel so laggy already hahahaha. i guess my week was pretty average. i don't know why i felt like this week passed especially fast, is it only me? it was kinda hard the first few days though because school resumed after 4 days of study-less break for me, and i couldn't get myself back on track or to focus by the time we went back to school. i guess the week was pretty okay on average though more depressing than ever this week, i have no idea why. probably because i didn't find as much time for God as i used to and i felt myself being tossed in tumultuous situations where i forgot to be the best i could with God and for God, and that kinda disappointed me a little. i'm hoping it gets better.
some interesting things that happened this week:

- monday: best day of the new year honestly. visiting + food (OH YEAH) + money + a little good gambling and fun
- tuesday: i did nothing. this is interesting enough LOLOLOLOL.
- wednesday: panic attack because i wasn't even ready for school. and we ran 1.0km for PE after all the new year eating where my timing deproved by 2 minutes HAHAHAH
- thursday: i didn't study for the chinese test (see what i mean by loss of focus?), but i surprisingly understood rate of change for amath! /nerd/ oh and yes i finally sent my film to be processed and developed but (dun dun dun) i'll talk about this later hahahah
- friday: mr phua gave us an SS test which i obviously couldn't handle as well because my case study skills are horribly rusty. oh and choir was good too.
- saturday: acting camp in school was extremely inviting despite me having prejudices against it because it was full day of school on saturday for me hahaha. and it was terribly fun too, not as bad as i expected actually! i could do without the climbing up and down like 6-over times and walking around the hall a million times too though i'm a singer not an actor not an athlete i could do without physical activity thank u veri much /blatantly unfit/ OH AND BRO GOT MY BBF ASSEMBLED BC HE GOT HIS GORGEOUS DIANI MINI hehe

i guess that was it. i just realised i basically summarised my entire week like that hahahaha and yes i reckon new year and the week following it would definitely be more fun a year from now since we wouldn't have to listen to people reminding us about o's and of course, there'd be more time for partying, visiting, shopping etc. LIKE AN EXTENDED WEEK'S WORTH OF NEW YEAR. WITH FRIENDS AND ALL THAT SHIT. I CANNOT W8. but then again i prolly woulda gotten a job so not so much of a new year hahahaha
i guess i started my resolution of wanting to dress slightly better during new year too... though i wish that came with a 'become classier' resolution.......... dinner yesterday reminded me how much social etiquette i DON'T have, and how classy i'm NOT. TROLOLOLOLOL never have any form of meal with me i'm barbaric if you couldn't already tell.
oh, on a totally separate topic, I GOT MY FILM SENT FOR PROCESSING AND DEVELOPING. YES. but then i realised i wasted like 9 frames worth (which makes that 18 shots dammit) of photos because when i thought my film was finished.... it was actually just my golden half that was spoilt. YES SPOILT I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW THAT HAPPENED I WAS BAWLING ON THE INSIDE I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING TO IT. but then again if i can't fix it, i get a new one, but that doesn't make the situation any better... well if i can fix it then, it would mean the only despairing thing to happen would be me wasting frames like i usually do TROLOLOLOL /greenhorn/
on a brighter note, my BBF's finally assembled!!!!!!!!!!! and i discovered it's not as ideal as the superheadz one, but that kinda only makes it more vintage (self-comforting here hurhur) and shit bec0z mah cam iz kewler than ur cam with no number counter, no wristlet/tripod holder, no aperture/exposure/shutter adjustments and all that... BET YOU CAN'T FIND A CAMERA LIKE THAT ANYMORE CAN YOU. lol who am i kidding it's just a plain camera, but it's gorgeous and i love it anyway hehe i hope the photos come out ideal... because it saved me like close to 200 bux from buying a BBF after wanting it for so long. superheadz is value fo' monehhhh no kidzzzzz.
my film comes back on monday (ie tomorrow LOL) and i've got SPA tomorrow too... so quite a fair bit happening there. i'm only just glad i don't have ASP tomorrow so i get to collect my photos right after school huphup :> there won't be many but i hope they're nice... or i'll bawl my eyes out the entire afternoon........................... and dad says he's gonna send my golden half to a friend to see if it can be fixed, but i told him that i'd rather get a new one if fixing it's gonna cost <$45 i guess it's not ideal but it's a better situation. something tells me it's not salvageable though DO YOU GAIZ HAVE ANY IDEA HOW SAD I AM RIGHT NOW
but i guess with this camera's departure (/stabs self/), i welcome my brother's diana mini to the family. it's a gorgeous camera... and he's now a show off because of it and it being more practical than mine etc etc
and i guess that was my week. this has been long and i guess no one wants to hear the acting camp story so i'll leave it at that hahahaha have a good week ahead everyone!!!!!! i hope my week gets better too. a week of focus, a week of good, a week of love, a week of selflessness, a week of studies and a week of God all at once. GOALS GOALS GOALS, GDAY.

God our refuge, God our strength, God is with us; He has overcome